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My sis told Nawal the news my father will sent letter 2 her father ask his daughter nawal 2 be came a wife 4 me . Nawal said ( I do not know I see so many letters in my father's office asking the same subject but my father not told me and when I compare the guys with ur brother I admire his opinion and his principle and when I pray 2 my God 2 help me 2 chose…. when I mention ur brother nam;s I see my eyes full off tears !!! I said 2 my self w.w hat happen why????.
But after weak they replay 2 me father …they do not want me 2 be a husband 4 there daughter …..my mam said ( do not be sad I will find the most beautiful girl 2 be ur wife) .. but I see every things sad like me the moon ,stars trees , the worker whom woke with me in dad farm…..and I feel my heart bleed and their is no way 2 be normal one more time , also I blame my self yes I am bad I only flinched my high school … work with the labor waste my time 4 drawing and write poem .my be if I am a doctor or engineer my be they accept me… yes …yes she is better than me .